High and Hyper

Today are the Grammys' and I've already confirmed with Burcu and Katie our 'date'.
Am I excited? Damn straight, I'm freaking out.
I listened to Alan Cross' radio show on Edge 102.5 and it was all about how music effects our brains mentally and physically. I thought it was totally cool but when my mom came into my room and started talking I hushed her and she got offended and went to work without a good-bye.
I knew she did it to make me feel guilty... well it worked and I hate that feeling. Anyway my dad and his best friend started making some soup in a huge gray pot last night and when I woke up I found out that his friend dropped by early to finish it. Jeez, it's soup. How long can it take?
At the moment I find myself watching MTV2, Joe Budden is on. He's so old. Well at least to me, why are they still playing his song 'Pump it up'? Maybe if it was a good song I would understand but it's terrible. The video is worse.
So, as usual I am torturing myself to see The Killers' videos. It's become a habit of my everyday life. Sad, huh? Well I figured out the MTV2 playlist. Every three hours they play the same video, but at different times. But every 9 hours they play the same video at the exact same time. For example if 'Mr. Brightside' came on at 7:50 a.m. then in 9 hours it would be on at 3:50 p.m.
I forgot how I figured that out but I haven't told anyone this secret except my friend Bernice, she's the only nice person who doesn't remind me of my obsession. I really appreciate that. But she does insist that I have a crush on Brandon, the lead singer of The Killers. I constantly tell her it's not true but she doesn't believe me anyway. What a waste of breath, or words, seeing as how I talk to her alot on MSN.
We don't hang out together at school anymore. It's sad really. Sometimes we fool around with our inside jokes but we weren't as close as we were in the beginning of the year or last year.
At least I have Burcu, I haven't lost much touch with her this school year. But Bernice and Burcu are my best friends, and everybody knows it. I want it to stay that way but I might be going to the same high school as Burcu and not Bernice so there's another tear in our friendship.
I'm scared. I don't want it to end. We have a bond. It's special. This sucks.
So... Katie wants to be my best friend. She doesn't ask me but you can tell. She's very close to me but I think it's not allowed to have three best friends. It's some rule I have placed in my brain.
How about Ayse? I'm close with her too. We laugh alot together, always gossiping about everybody in our school because we know everything about everybody. It's weird, people trust us because we don't ever spill secrets. Well, only to each other but that was a secret oath we made after people dubbed us 'Gossip Queens.' Creepy, I know. It wasn't my idea.
I'm also known as the 'Sarcasm Queen' because I'm always sarcastic... no really, always. It's hard to tell when I am and when I'm not. It's a problem with my parents. Boo-hoo.
I just want to be known as 'Killer Queen'... why? Because no matter how many people in my school like 'The Killers' I was the first and am the biggest. No doubt, and everybody knows it. Well they should, or else I'd have to do something crazy to remind them.